So yesterday, I saw my father for the very last time. I witnessed my fathers cremation. I saw my fathers body laying there peacefully. My mother cried, she told me that my father is leaving us. I told her that My father already left us last week, and he is off at a better place and we gave him a proper sendoff already. This is just the body that we need to send off so that dad can rest. I may sound very crude, but I believe that it is true we have to close this chapter and move on to the next. I miss my father very much I think about him everywhere I look. But the fact is, there is nothing I can do to bring him back. There still a lot of things to do after this. I still have to help my mom situate everything and take my dad to his final resting place. 2019 has been a really tough year.