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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
I been feeling worsts and worsts lately. every so often I feel a little bit better but then it just gets worst. Example ... I feel like crap right now.
Well... It must be just me... but it seems like the whole world in really into Podcasting. Well, today Apple just released their new Itunes. it includes Podcasting. Sweet.
Well, interesting lunch we had today. Robert, Ted, and I went to the local Mexican resturant ... when we walked up to the booth, some lady across the room said to me ... "excuse me ... we have one more?" ... Then I looked around ... there were no waiters around... the lady was talking to me. What the? Do I look like I work in a Mexican resturant? I feel insulted! but then I put that out of my mind and started to talk about podcasting. Yeah... few podcasting idea has been bouncing around in my mind. One is I would like to do an anime review podcast with Sergeon. Since sergeon and I both watch so much anime... and we discuss about it anyway... I thought why not record it and then release it as a podcast? Well... got to get back to work... my head is not hurting anymore... but it is raining outside. I still miss you Hsiu...
I feel that I really care about her and she doesn't feel the same way. Why am I so silly that I am here hurting and trying to understand what is going on and she doesn't feel anything. Maybe she does, but why is she so cold? Why is she pushing everything away. Hsiu Hsiu is having a cold in Shanghai right now. I worry about her. Why do I worry about her? Even if I worry about her ... she doesn't care that I worry about her. Am I really such a bad person that no girl appreciates my love and care? I care about you, Hsiu.... I really love you, Hsiu... I know you love me too... so why all this? why can you not come to me? I will take care of you. I will ...
I hate shanghai... I hate china.... I hate all that is causing this situation.
SCREW this !
I will just remain single and alone ... that's fine ... no one have to worry about me... JUST GO AWAY, WORLD... I am just fine!
Well... I was out fishing yesterday and I did not catch any fish, but I did took some pictures. I was going to go to the driving range and hit some balls today and then go fish a little more... but since this morning... my head had just been pounding. It hurt almost as much as my heart.
I woke up this morning and my head hurts and my stomach hurts. My head hurts because of missing Hsiu Hsiu, and my stomach hurts because... I think... because I ate too much cherries yesterday. ohh.... bad idea, bad!!!
I have not update my website in a very long time. I am looking for a new format to do my blog and my website. I would like to open to suggestions..... Should I go with a more photo album look? or should I go with a blog feel?
Well... Yesterday, I wrote about ripping NPR streams... Well.. I looked into it some more and I found that there are alot of contents on something called Podcasting. It is basically, radio content free for download. But it is just not all radio's ... there are alot of Audio blogs too. Some are just plan stupid. Some people should not have the right to be on the air. They suck!!! I think I will play with it some more. What is funny is that the more you play with it the more content you get... then... all you every do is listen to your IPOD. funny huh? BTW... any one wants to buy a 30 gig creative Zen Xtra.... I will sell it cheap!!!
It is Friday afternoon and I am the only one in the office. It is 3:49 and everyone is gone already. I still have stuff to do so ... I am taking a small break and I will go back to work. So ... last night I decided to work on getting some contents for my Ipod. Since Audible.com charges close to 10 dollars for recordings of NPR shows, I decided to look for alternatives. I mean NPR is free radio. so I found this site. The guy give you step by step instructions on how to rip an NPR stream and create a schedule task so you will get the show you want even when you are not there. I followed his instruction and it worked great. I actually modified his idea and instead of creating a different batch file per show. I only create one bat file for each streaming radio station. I use a argv to pass value in to the batch file. BTW argv in DOS/Windows batch file is %1 and %2 for the first and second argument. Anyway... I now can call the same batch file for that radio station and the argument %1 is the filename and 2 is the show time in seconds. It works great!!! so ... I guess this is one way to get around the 10 dollar per show fee. Now I only have to find a place to download some other interesting audio contents.
I am really liking my Ipod Photo 60 gigs right now. So here are some pictures of my new gadget toy! So how does it compare up with the Creative Zen Xtra 30 gig? Well, let me just tell you. Creative Zen has all your basic functions as a MP3 player and that is about it. There is just no comparison to the APPLE's design and the software integration. I use to just be a hardware junkie... but I now realize... a good supporting software is just as important. The Ipod and Itunes combo satisfied this critieria. SWEET!
Oh ... I almost forgot... Look what I got today... yep yep... I got my new toy... to cheer me up... I got myself an IPOD photo 60 gig. yeah... it is so sweet. I got it pull it out.. hook it up to my USB port on my computer, loaded the drivers and BOOM... my music on the itunes started to transfer on to the ipod. Even the smart playlists transfered. I really like it so far. it is a good design.... I should have gotten an Ipod long ago...:-) The only problem is I can't put her pictures in my ipod photo anymore... :-(
Just got back from the Batman movie with my coworkers. My friends were very nice... they were kind enough to go out on a Wednesday night and catch a movie, with me. Yeah.. I got to get out and do something... or else... I will start thinking about crazy stuff. Anyway... I had dinner with Ted and afterward we walked over to the Movie Theater and met up with Ken and Robert and Robert's Wife. Yes ... Ephrata is that small... If I wanted to, I could have walked from my house to the theater... I was glad I did not...after I got back from the theater.. I realized that the temperature dropped dramatically. Burr... I keep on for getting that it is the desert out here. Anyway... I am diverting... back to Batman....
Batman was a good movie. It was not like the previous Batman movies... this one is more realistic... this one is also more character development then the other ones. It really let you understand and find out who Batman really is.
I recommend this movie... even if you did not like the other Batman movies before... this one is worth the watch.
I hate myself right now... everywhere I look and everything I do ... I think about her. I just am not very comfortable right now.I don't know why I just dont feel right. I fell really sad. I try not to think about it at all but the thought of not seeing her anymore disturbs me.
So in light of all that is going on.. I decided I am going to pick up Japaneses. I started to listen to audio tracks and try to speak to audio tracks like when I was a little. That was how I learned english. It was with audio tapes and constantly repeating them. If I can do it once ... I am sure I can do it again with another language.
I miss you Hsiu Hsiu... I wonder if she misses me?
Why does it hurt so much... Why? Everything I do it reminds me of you. Every where I look there is something there that reminds me of you. I hurts so much... I just don't understand why we can't be together? why can we not work this out? It is not fair .. it is not fair at all.... Especially ... when we are together ... we are happy.
I feel really bad all yesterday... and I feel really bad all last night. I keep having dreams of quiting my job and going to Shanghai. I just feel like I lost all that I've been waiting for and hoping for for the last couple of years. I waited until she graduated... then she left for Asia... I waited and waited watching all the stuff that she left behide, thinking that she will comeback to me one day. And now that day will never come. I feel like crap.
So... attempting to cheer myself up ... I decided to spend money... I bought an Ipod Photo 60 gig. I figure... I bought 2 other ipods for everyone else... why should I not get one to cheer me up? so I got one... It is coming in two days .. I hope. So the next thing I need is to get a BMW to match my Ipod right? Oh yeah...
It is Friday.... I am still at work right now.... I thought about taking a break... so I thought I write in my blog a bit. Well... lately ... I been really hating weekends. Weekends just means I will be all alone again. It is tough... my mind starts to wonder when I am just by myself. I got to get myself to concentrate on my work or do some studying. Need to get my CCNP. Anyway... I miss you Hsiu Hsiu!!!
I been dreaming alot lately. I been dreaming about Hsiu and me. Some were good and some were bad. I sometime feels like, I like it better in my dream world. I am so lost....
Tuesday today.... I just had my morning Perl class... Yeah... I do know perl... but It is interesting to get a refresher course. It is way to simple right now. Anyway... because I been so out of it... I sometime get urges to buy stuff. So I guess I will list what I have some urges to get Plane ticket to go to Shanghai Plane ticket to go home IPOD photo 60 gig.... I already have an MP3 player... but it don't work with Itunes :-( New Laptop... my is falling apart and I like so many other things....
Well, since it has been a while since I last posteded... yesterday doesn't count... I figure I will list some of the things that have happened since the last time I wrote in my blog.
1) Hsiu Hsiu was here for a week in May. She flew in to Seattle and immediately we flew to Houston for my sister's graduation. Then we drove to Lafayette, LA to visit with some of my parent's friends and we drove back to Auburn the next day. We had a small crawfish boil and the day after Hsiu Hsiu and I flew to Boston. We were in Boston for the remining time she was here. At the end of our Boston trip we flew from Boston to Cleveland then to Atlanta and then to Newark and then to Seattle. Yeah... it was a long trip. By the time Hsiu Hsiu got home, I think she already made silver status on her frequent flier miles. I had alot of fun with her here. It was good to visit Houston and it is very very sad to see her go again.
2) My little sister has graduated College. Yep Min-Jye is now a college graduate. She graduated from Bio Engineering... whatever that means. She is now going to attend UAB in Bham for med school. Boy it has been a while since I went back to Birmingham. Congrats Min-Jye.
3) Sergeon and Shi's daughter was born. Her name is Misha. I am so happy for them. So congrats Sergeon and Shi.
4) Star Wars 3 has came and gone... ok maybe it is not gone yet but it is still very very good film. It was better than what I had expected. After the movie I ended up watching Star Wars 4, 5, and 6 all over again. That's pretty crazy huh?
5) I started to read the Manga GANTZ. I have to say Mangas are like cocaine. It is very very addictive. They only publish 15 pages of comic every week and GANTZ has been going on for 200+ weeks. Yeah... a long time and I finish reading 200 weeks of comic in 2 days... and now I am wanting more and I have to wait... AHHHH... I need a GANTZ fix!!!!
Well, That is all I can remember right now....
Currently I am sitting in the coffee shop and the SAGE N SUN is going on outside. SageNSun is a summer festival here in Ephrata. Believe me ... it is not much of a festive, It is not like the City Stages in Bham or the Rodeo's in Houston or the Music festivals in ATL.... yeah... I miss those.
I been feeling really lonely lately..... Since Hsiu Hsiu left in May.... I know I should be concentrate on something else ... but it is hard. I find myself sleeping alot and dreaming alot and thinking alot. I am becoming more and more isolated... being in Ephrata doesn't help.