I hate myself right now… everywhere I look and everything I do … I think about her. I just am not very comfortable right now.I don’t know why I just dont feel right. I fell really sad.
I try not to think about it at all but the thought of not seeing her anymore disturbs me.

So in light of all that is going on.. I decided I am going to pick up Japaneses. I started to listen to audio tracks and try to speak to audio tracks like when I was a little. That was how I learned english. It was with audio tapes and constantly repeating them. If I can do it once … I am sure I can do it again with another language.

I miss you Hsiu Hsiu…
I wonder if she misses me?